Thursday, June 28, 2012

First day.......

Tired but not done she did not nap today
of preschool for GG and tough mama here is having a really hard time with it. As much as the little bugger sometimes drives me completely friggin insane I miss this shit out of her today. I am sad. I literally sat in the parking lot crying for about 1/2 hour....BTW thank you PMS for making today even more emotional than it was supposed to be. Why is it so hard and when the hell did she grow up so quick. Just the other day I was holding her in my arms and today she took her first back pack and lunch pail too school. I am freaking the F*ck out yo! Ya.....so tough girly here has a mushy side what the hell am I supposed to do not get it out? 

So after I dropped off and had a good ol' cry I headed to the gym and worked out which was the first weirdness she is with me every time I go to the gym and this morning she was not there and it just felt weird. I finished working out and then I left to do some quick errands - I got in the car looked in the back and all I saw was an empty car seat instead of two little arms waving in the air to whatever 80's music mama was listening to. At one point while I walked into the grocery store I ran back to the car because I thought I left her in the car. Yep crazy time here and I was missing my partner is crime. I am sure it will get easier today was just a little tough for me that's all.

I took a little trip to the book store and got Ms. GG a 1st day of preschool present.....I know I am horrible but at least it was books and not like some dumb toy. I got her three of her favorite things right now...anything to do with the Mickey Mouse Club and Strawberry Shortcake. I picked her up and she was NOT ready to go she loved it and did not want to come home......such a good sign. I asked the teachers how she did and they said she was good to go and fantastic. Not a tear shed - she asked for my once and when the teacher explained what she was doing there and I would be back she was good to go. So far so good. I think today was was easier for her then it was for me. What the hell am I going to do when she starts high school oh good God.





7 comments:

KERRY said...

Oh no you poor thing! I feel for you, I have been there...and I have one in highschool ;)
It sounds like she loved her first day but I am sure there will be days where it's tough on her and you and seperation anxiety may set in. It's a big transition, crying in the car is perfectly acceptable :) For her and you!

Mommy Bags said...

Wahhhhh I know I am one big baby :0)

Andrea said...

I used to love the excited tales from a grand day at preschool! The middle and high school snippets are far more rare, and not intentionally amusing!

Im A Silly Mami said...

I totally feel your pain. I just posted about our first preschool orientation. It totally sucks doesn't it. I hate not having Buggy with me and I have been crying for the last two weeks! I'm emotionally exhausted!

Irene

ana said...

Oh man! We went and checked out a preschool the other day and I was ready to start crying just imagining her going. They weren't kidding when they said "They grow up so fast"... and I had the sad realization that I won't always be her bestest friend... but I do get to always be her Mommy.

Jessica @ TheCrazyChaoticHouse said...

YAY for GG!!! And dont worry mama it will get easier. I didnt cry when I dropped off Cameron for his first day but it did feel super duper weird to leave him with complete strangers. i think kindergarten will be tougher for me:)

Not Winning Mom of the Year said...

Oh MB, it gets better. I remember waiting outside Big T's class for the entire class because he cried when I left him there. Even though he stopped, and was fine I felt horrible.

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