All about.....

me. Yep soon it will be all about me not forever but for a month or so it will be and I will be making no apologies for it. I have been on a roller coaster of change for the last 5 years and I want to get off the ride for a little bit. As you know from reading my blog my little GG will be starting preschool soon...she has orientation this week and I have been getting all her stuff ready...sniff. Of course with my type A personality I am already racking my brain on what I am gong to do with that little bit of free time in the am. I have an idea in which direction I will be going I however need to stop......breath......assess the situation and take care of me for a bit. 

Why you ask........because I have weathered through a shit load of change and heartache in the last few years and I have not had the chance to stop and breath. Let's see...... I quit my job {50%}because a business opportunity that had come my way which obviously did not happen. I might go into that story one day and I might not the"person" involved in the lie just makes me angry and SAD and I really do not want to waste any of you all's time with that part of my life right now. All I can say it is because of this particular "person" that I now no longer trust many people and have made me very paranoid of new friendships. Many people warned me about this sociopath and I chose not to listen...shame on me. She is no longer relevant and just a piece of maggot shit on my shoe.
Wusa...Wusa...


The other 50 % I let go of the job is {15 yrs btw}because the stress was getting to me bad and I needed to step away - I was beginning to HATE my job/career and I needed to help my dad take care of my mom who while I was still working got diagnosed with Stage 4 lung cancer this is a woman who never touched a drink let alone a cigarette in her f8ckin life.  FU cancer and FU for taking my mom bitch.  
For 14 months I helped take care of her I got to spend quality time with her for the first time in years, and for that I am thankful. After her passing I was numb and my husband decided it was time for a break we decided to head to Las Vegas for a weekend of fun...I spent the whole weekend in a happy drunk stupor and released allot of pressure, stress and sadness. My husband got a huge ass suite at the Wynn Encore Resort, rented a private cabana by the pool for the whole weekend and let me shop to my hearts content. Yep my husband is a wonderful human being. A month later BOOM I find out I am preggo, 8 months of hell { I don't do pregnant well} POP here comes baby GG and it has been a wild ride for the last 21/2 years with her no time to think just do. While she preschool I am taking my life back for a bit. I will be taking a month or so to overhaul my health. I am fairly healthy right now but it's time to step in up a few notches. I am 42 and look pretty damn good for my age but I want to look fabulous. I after all will be 50 when my daughter turns 10 so I need to make sure my ass is in tip top shape. Getting my ass back on WW to get myself  back on track.  I eat healthy  but I wanto to get my calorie intake in check. Stepping up the cardio to about 2 hours a day then I will be taking some yoga during the week to mellow me out. I also have checked into mixed martial arts I think something like that will help me even out my Italian passion....


I feel that I have taken care of myself but have not done what I should do to get to the next level. Living life has always gotten in the way if you know what I mean. I also partied my ass off for many years and it times to mend the damage that I have probably done to my body. This is the first step to my overall health overhaul. I will keep you posted on the outcome. Wish me luck and I am looking forward to spending some time with me.