Monday, June 25, 2012

All about.....



me. Yep soon it will be all about me not forever but for a month or so it will be and I will be making no apologies for it. I have been on a roller coaster of change for the last 5 years and I want to get off the ride for a little bit. As you know from reading my blog my little GG will be starting preschool soon...she has orientation this week and I have been getting all her stuff ready...sniff. Of course with my type A personality I am already racking my brain on what I am gong to do with that little bit of free time in the am. I have an idea in which direction I will be going I however need to stop......breath......assess the situation and take care of me for a bit. 

Why you ask........because I have weathered through a shit load of change and heartache in the last few years and I have not had the chance to stop and breath. Let's see...... I quit my job {50%}because a business opportunity that had come my way which obviously did not happen. I might go into that story one day and I might not the"person" involved in the lie just makes me angry and SAD and I really do not want to waste any of you all's time with that part of my life right now. All I can say it is because of this particular "person" that I now no longer trust many people and have made me very paranoid of new friendships. Many people warned me about this sociopath and I chose not to listen...shame on me. She is no longer relevant and just a piece of maggot shit on my shoe.
Wusa...Wusa...


The other 50 % I let go of the job is {15 yrs btw}because the stress was getting to me bad and I needed to step away - I was beginning to HATE my job/career and I needed to help my dad take care of my mom who while I was still working got diagnosed with Stage 4 lung cancer this is a woman who never touched a drink let alone a cigarette in her f8ckin life.  FU cancer and FU for taking my mom bitch.  
For 14 months I helped take care of her I got to spend quality time with her for the first time in years, and for that I am thankful. After her passing I was numb and my husband decided it was time for a break we decided to head to Las Vegas for a weekend of fun...I spent the whole weekend in a happy drunk stupor and released allot of pressure, stress and sadness. My husband got a huge ass suite at the Wynn Encore Resort, rented a private cabana by the pool for the whole weekend and let me shop to my hearts content. Yep my husband is a wonderful human being. A month later BOOM I find out I am preggo, 8 months of hell { I don't do pregnant well} POP here comes baby GG and it has been a wild ride for the last 21/2 years with her no time to think just do. While she preschool I am taking my life back for a bit. I will be taking a month or so to overhaul my health. I am fairly healthy right now but it's time to step in up a few notches. I am 42 and look pretty damn good for my age but I want to look fabulous. I after all will be 50 when my daughter turns 10 so I need to make sure my ass is in tip top shape. Getting my ass back on WW to get myself  back on track.  I eat healthy  but I wanto to get my calorie intake in check. Stepping up the cardio to about 2 hours a day then I will be taking some yoga during the week to mellow me out. I also have checked into mixed martial arts I think something like that will help me even out my Italian passion....


I feel that I have taken care of myself but have not done what I should do to get to the next level. Living life has always gotten in the way if you know what I mean. I also partied my ass off for many years and it times to mend the damage that I have probably done to my body. This is the first step to my overall health overhaul. I will keep you posted on the outcome. Wish me luck and I am looking forward to spending some time with me.


























































































































5 comments:

Caffeinated OC Mommy said...

Good for you Darling! I'll be cheering for you every step of the way, especially when I'm headed for the lipstick aisle... xoxo

Cyn Knight said...

holy shit good for you!!!
MMA! i am so insanely jealous!!! lol! but i will be reading and cheering ya on the whole way!!!
i am with ya though... i will be 49 when sky turns 10 and i wanna look my absolute best for her and me!
you can totally do whatever ya want because you just rock balls mama!!!

xxoo!

Not Winning Mom of the Year said...

Good for you girl! You are making me happy and jealous all at the same time. I know how it feels to be on auto pilot for years and taking this time for yourself is exactly what you need!

ana said...

Good for you Mama! We all need to take some "Me" time in order to keep from going insane.

Jessica @ TheCrazyChaoticHouse said...

2 hours of cardio! You go girl!! Thats great! I am lucky if I get 30 minutes in. I haven't started going back to the gym since baby. Its going to be a challenge with 3 kiddos but I feel great and can't wait to get started again. And reading this post makes me want to get going:))

Feeling the love......