Mommy Bags.....

I have never hidden the fact that I started late on the baby making - I got pregnant at 39 and had GG at 40. It is not uncommon in the area where I live to see first time mommies in late late 30's and early 40's. Women are getting married later in life after they get to where they want to be in their careers and do them for a bit before settling down and doing the baby/family thing. I love that this miracle happened to us later in life. It gave us the opportunity to travel the world and get our party out of our systems.  That being said though their is not a day that I do not calculate the years...OMG I will be 55 when GG turns 15 it is a daily mental battle with my brain. I need to look like Christie Brinkley does at 58 because my daughter will be 18 and I want to make sure I don't feel and look old. Since I am not a believer in plastic surgery and botox - BTW I give it another 10-15 years and you something will come out saying botox  is bad for you and will cause some kind of cancer remember now about 40 years ago cigarette smoke was also good for you...Also who the hell wants to look like this - in about 20 years everyone is going to start looking like little plastic figurines. Scary...

Anyway my biggest concern besides not wanting to feel/look old and being healthy for my GG is the old dreaded friggin word that every woman fears in the age range of 48-55 comes around MENOF*CKINPAUSE. Just imagine when I hit 50 I am going to deal with a 10 year old and menopause....Happy Happy Joy Joy....... Oh lord. I am now reading everything that I possibly can on the subject. I will not go the synthetic hormone route so I have started researching some local hippy skippy nurses to keep it all natural.  If I have to pull a Samantha and spread yak fat all over my body so be it!  Am I just being weird?