Thursday, May 10, 2012

My whole life changed......


yours did not. So let me start by saying I am not bashing my husband at all. This is not what I am doing. I know there are some people out there who do no like to read post about how cool their husbands are but mine is beyond cool.  He is loving, super patient because let me tell you dealing with me you need a boat load of patience. He loves our daughter, he is an awesome father,  he helps around the house when I need it and he is an over the top hard ass worker that provides and allows us a beautiful comfortable life.  He is a gentleman through and through and on a daily basis I thank my lucky stars I got so fortunate and that my MIL did such an awesome job raising him. However a nice fancy BUT their are days that I want to hit him over the head with a frying pan just like I am sure their are days he want to throw me off the deck.....When we started this journey we knew that our lives would change. His changed a bit mine changed allot. I am now going through like a mini empty nest syndrome my little one will be starting preschool only in the am for a few days but I will definitely have a little bit of free time.  So of course you start questioning what am I going to do with this time,  what is the reason my life took this turn blah blah blah.  You go through this whole I am a certain age I am getting to old.  Being a late in life mother this is something that I struggle with on a daily basis. I sometimes voice this to my man and he sometimes just does not get why I go through this. How you do not get that I used to have a pretty awesome career {as well as stressful} and now I clean up baby shit and toys all day long. Don't get me wrong now, I love being home and I am so f*ckin lucky to be able to stay home and raise my little bambina but sometimes shit you need something else before you lose your ever living mine.  You know whatta mean? When we had GG I lost my career, lost my self, adult interaction. I lost my iindependence my self worth and my hormone sanity.  My stomach and tits will never ever be the same no matter how much working out I do. All of these changes happened to me. His life did not change much and sometimes I get a little resentful of it. I know this sounds like a poor me post but you know today I am feeling this way. Some people will understand  what I am feeling and going through and some will not but it is my choice to post what I want.

I am the early, early stages of starting a new venture and I am excited.  I already have some clients and my goods are getting popular with the mommy set but this is definitely going to take some time.  When I do something I do it right so I take my time.   I am also thinking about going back to school to fine tune the skills I already have. Which will require many hours and hard work but you know what this has started getting my blood boiling. I feel that besides making sure that I raise an outstanding little human and taking care of my man I have something of my very own to grab on to.  I am pumped!  I know that taking the time to do something that makes me happy will make me a more relaxed and better mom for my GG.




7 comments:

Andrea said...

Yes Mommy, grab something for yourself! I am still trying to figure out what that is going to be! ;)

thechunkygoddess.com said...

you will rock the frig outta whatever you do & MAN can i relate to the whole *older mom/my whole life totally changed when i thought i was set in my ways* sorta thing -- just makes up even more kickass 40-something's!

xxoo

Julie Marling said...

New follower from blog hop! Glad I found your blog. I like your sense of humor!

Follow back when you can!

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Mommy Does Everything said...

Another new follower here from blog hop and glad I did ! I can relate about the whole adultish life we once had and the stomach and def tits thing too lol I still work :( economy not allowing me to stay home yet but trying out a new venture myself :) good luck
Adriana
Http://mommydoeseverything.blogspot.com

Mrs. E said...

Yes, it will. You will be more relaxed and ready to be a mom. The old you doesn't just disappear like some people think it should. Enjoy your free time.

Susan said...

As far as I'm concerned, you rock it all! You had a great career which you gave up to be a (clearly) amazing mom, and are now going to branch out and do both. Good for you!!!
Susan
http://75percenthippie.blogspot.com
http://happyhippieheart.blogspot.com

Jessica @ TheCrazyChaoticHouse said...

I hope your going to share your new adventure with us! I cannot wait to hear about it. I totally understand what you mean:)

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