a f*ck anymore. Their I said it.......This morning I got up and decided in my 42 year age wisdom that I was not going to give a sh*t about what people have to say or what they are doing. I gotta say it is awesome and I feel 100 times more relaxed and serene...I feel as though a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
To think of all the time I have wasted, years worrying about what the person down the hall thought, or what people thought of me while walking down the street...well you know what no more. I have wasted so many emotions. I wasted words and part of my life worrying and stressing about stupid sh*t and in the end it really does not matter. All that matters is that your are a good person. Who, what, were that is all irrelevant. In the past I have opened up my heart to many people and have had it stomped in the process and you know what folks you are now on your own and you can kiss my ass.
Life is too short and you are not guaranteed the next day.....so grab life by the balls and ride. Right now I have a very good friend of my moms who is fighting for her life. They discovered a tumor in her brain last week. I just saw her a month ago and she was fine. You never know what the next day is going to bring so worrying about people I do not know or barely know is a waste of time and energy. I am going to take that energy and filter it in my family and immediate close group of friends. I am going to not be scared to take more chances and do what I need to do to make ME and my family happy.