No one prepares.......

you for this shit and why so soon?  Late this weekend we received the news that my moms beloved friend passed away from that horrible brain tumors they found a month prior. I don't know but I am not ready for this again . I understand it comes a time {being that I am 42} that the circle of friends my mother hung out with will begin to pass on just by the general  life's progression but I am sorry I am not ready. I was not ready for my mom to go and I am not ready for her friends to go. I know I need to suck it up and pull my big girl panties up but really God can you just give us a break for a few years?  I know that I am not a church going gal but I do pray in my own special way and if that means I pray to you on a rock by the ocean it should be good because you created this awesome place called earth and I was wondering if you could just let things rest for a bit. For the last year and half you have taken 3 of moms friends. I know that they area riot to have around especially when they played those all night card games and sat around clucking gossip like hens but we still need them on earth. Sorry to be such a Debbie Downer but I just needed to vent a little and I promised myself that this blog would be about the good, the bad and the ugly.