I had a mommy.....

Meltdown yesterday. It...was....bad! So very bad. Now I always try to keep it together but yesterday I just broke. The last few weeks have been stressful for us...there is some stuff going on that I will get into more details later...Noting bad but stressful non the less.

I got up this morning and just did not feel like going to the gym which is not like me...could it be that my little one has had a steady stream of snot since last week. I thought teeth - not again I cannot go through another night of torture but after talking to some of the other mommy's we come to find out that all the kiddies that attend day camp while us mommy's work out {so we do not snap} have had this same snot river.  Also there seems to have been an up swing in people working out at the gym so it has been packed and I just did not feel like being in a closed space with another 100 sweaty ass people with my anxiety being at an all time HIGH  I could possibly punch someone in the neck - then I will be carted off to mommy prison. And it would be a total mess...j/k by the way
So I decided to go to the track and walk with LDG and my  fur monkeys. So what happens?....I cried to the car, I cried when I was buckling baby in car seat, I cried on the way to the track - the poor man at the red light who looked over pretty much thought I was coco puffs crazy......Hehehhehehhhe..... *Drool*

I got to the park,  unloaded all the passengers and their shit and started to fast walk around the track- cried some more. Continued to walk around the track and by the 6th go around I started to feel better. I decided at that point that I felt good enough that I would head over to the fish stand at our local grocery store. I was comfortable enough that I would not have a total  mini breakdown at the market. Can you imagine...."Earl clean up aisle 7 mommy has melted down. We need to sweep away her brain". Oh lord that would be horrible...I decided to suck it up at that point because I knew I could do it and I really felt like some fish tacos.

I will still wondering what caused this sudden outburst and then I REMEMBERED that it was time for aunt florinda to pay a visit and that I was on the PMS train to insanity. I got home and brewed a nice hot cup of the below, put baby down for nap,  placed a feeding bag of chips to my mouth and watched  a marathon of Americas Next Top Model while cussing out the skinny bitches because I felt so fat, bloated and guilty for eating a bag of chips  *hey they were baked and low fat*............................ Yeah good times.

xoxo Just me