Saturday, September 17, 2011

I had a mommy.....


Meltdown yesterday. It...was....bad! So very bad. Now I always try to keep it together but yesterday I just broke. The last few weeks have been stressful for us...there is some stuff going on that I will get into more details later...Noting bad but stressful non the less.

I got up this morning and just did not feel like going to the gym which is not like me...could it be that my little one has had a steady stream of snot since last week. I thought teeth - not again I cannot go through another night of torture but after talking to some of the other mommy's we come to find out that all the kiddies that attend day camp while us mommy's work out {so we do not snap} have had this same snot river.  Also there seems to have been an up swing in people working out at the gym so it has been packed and I just did not feel like being in a closed space with another 100 sweaty ass people with my anxiety being at an all time HIGH  I could possibly punch someone in the neck - then I will be carted off to mommy prison. And it would be a total mess...j/k by the way
So I decided to go to the track and walk with LDG and my  fur monkeys. So what happens?....I cried to the car, I cried when I was buckling baby in car seat, I cried on the way to the track - the poor man at the red light who looked over pretty much thought I was coco puffs crazy......Hehehhehehhhe..... *Drool*

I got to the park,  unloaded all the passengers and their shit and started to fast walk around the track- cried some more. Continued to walk around the track and by the 6th go around I started to feel better. I decided at that point that I felt good enough that I would head over to the fish stand at our local grocery store. I was comfortable enough that I would not have a total  mini breakdown at the market. Can you imagine...."Earl clean up aisle 7 mommy has melted down. We need to sweep away her brain". Oh lord that would be horrible...I decided to suck it up at that point because I knew I could do it and I really felt like some fish tacos.

I will still wondering what caused this sudden outburst and then I REMEMBERED that it was time for aunt florinda to pay a visit and that I was on the PMS train to insanity. I got home and brewed a nice hot cup of the below, put baby down for nap,  placed a feeding bag of chips to my mouth and watched  a marathon of Americas Next Top Model while cussing out the skinny bitches because I felt so fat, bloated and guilty for eating a bag of chips  *hey they were baked and low fat*............................ Yeah good times.




xoxo Just me




17 comments:

Candice said...

I'm in the same boat as you :( Hang in there!

Cyn said...

omgosh i am a total psychopath when i pms -- literally the entire family avoids me like the plague. and i was never like this until i hit 40 --oh yeah coulda been that had a baby @ 39 thing too... hrmmm!

and ya know what -- a good cry is prolly what you needed -- i love a good cry!

sorry the kiddo is sick & you are on the verge having your brain swept away (hahahaha love that) - hang in there and maybe add some vodka to that tea?
heh

i find sangria helps A LOT too!
cyn

Rachel Howells said...

Those hormones are brutal - I totally related. I'll be having some emotional "crisis" over inadvertently putting the glass bottle in the recycling bin meant for cardboard and then 3 days later realize the true reason for my turmoil.

I’m following you back from the FNF blog hop! Cheers ~ Rachel ~

Harry said...

My hormones are so out of whack lately too, maybe it's the moon! Hope you feel better soon!!

Ciao Mama's said...

So out of whack I have never had them this out of sync before.Hormone hell.....is it a full moon?

coronaryrn said...

At least you have the excuse of PMS! I am 52 and had a hysterectomy at 39 and don't have that excuse anymore! Hopping along on Saturday's Hops...Follow back @ http://www.pargasjunkyard.wordpress.com and on facebook @ http://www.facebook.com/PargasJunkyard . Join our Wacky Weekend Hop!

mmbear said...

I have had those days and sometimes I just go outside and scream as loud as I can! But then, I live way back in the woods and no one would even know! I did have a friend way up on the main road call and ask me if I was okay. So, one person did hear me. I am already following, just wanted to leave you a comment. Have a great weekend!

Mary@http://www.mmbearcupoftea.com

Michael Ann said...

Oh man, can so relate. Hormones really dow wreak havoc on us. They magnify everything. That PMS tea is great stuff!

Jansen Family said...

Yes, hormones! **sigh** I think this will become my new all time favorite line, though: "We need to sweep away her brain." ! I feel like I'm always picking up my brain, lol!

Carla @ Jansen Family Adventures

Cheapsoda and Dooty Booty said...

I totally feel right there with you! except my PMS isnt PRE-menstrual it is during also....blah!i now have countdowns until meltdowns...lol WATCH OUT and get the F outta my way lol! keep your head up lady:)

Dvr Dame said...

Oh sorry you had such a bad day. I've had a few of those days. Stopping by from blog hop.
Rebecca

Beckvalleybooks said...

New follower via blog hop hoping you will follow us back at http://www.beckvalleybooks.blogspot.com thks in advance xx

Nancy Hinchliff said...
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Nancy Hinchliff said...

Boy, after reading all this, am I glad I'm over the hill.

meandmom said...

We all have days like that. I am a new follower from the Finding Friends blog hop. Visit my daughter and I at our blog, Says Me Says Mom (http://saysmesaysmom.blogspot.com) where we talk about anything and everything.

Summer K. said...

It's nice to know I'm not the only one who sends mental nasty notes to the skinny women on Top Model, haha! And yet, somehow I still watch it when there's nothing else on, haha! We'll lose the weight, we will!!! I'm a first time mom too and we can kick it together!

Ciao Mama's said...

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