So yesterday......

was voluntarily torture myself day. Went to the dentist for the first time in years. I was in a state of total drooling anxiety most of Sunday and Monday. Sunday a very good friend was in town so we went out and had lunch and I had a few to many Bellini/wine...I do not drink on school nights period I don't do mimosa or bloody Mary's on Sunday's anymore when you have to take care of a toddler and you feel like shit the next day it makes the whole day miserable. I know the only reason I took it there Sunday is because I was super nervous for the hell that was my Monday dental appt. I got through the first part of Monday with a 1/2 anti anxiety to get me to the dentist. Husband drove me because I could not deal - yes I might sound like a big ol pussy but you know what when you have had the extended dental work that I have had and the shitty dentist  that I have seen it makes you a little gun shy for some dude coming at you with a hook and a gun full of air that you know he will proceed to shoot right onto your f*cked up cavity ridden tooth

I can say this for the amount of time I have not gotten teeth cleaned I did pretty well. One mondo size cavity that has a 50/50 chance of being a root canal we will find next week but knowing my teeth this bitch will be a root canal. I have a cracked filling which he will take care of next when. I am also getting fitted for a night guard because he wants to get my jaw to get better.  My jaw cracks like a mother f*cker and my husband said that last night was the first time he heard it and it freaked him out. The dentist did some jaw realigning yesterday and it was the weirdest thing I have ever felt I am a little sore today but it worked. Yeah so my dentist is awesome and his staff amazing so it did not suck too bad but I still have drilling to go through next week so I am keeping fingers crossed. He did suggest that I take a whole anxiety pill next week because he did notice the look of fear in my eyes. So all in all a pretty fabu day......