I thought you were the biggest......

This is re post...Why because I got this AGAIN the other day from another person I have gotten to know a whole lot better. Am I  perceived this way by people because I don't fake and whistle daisies out of my ass on a daily basis???  Because I do not fully trust ANYONE until I get to know them and when I receive huge warning signals{over exaggerations, little white lies I catch the peeps in} I back off? This is me being me and I have learned in my older age that trust is something that needs to be earned and not just given to any Tom, Dick and Harry I have been burned once and will never ever be put in that situation again so if sometimes I come off as a little standoffish it is not because I am a bitch it is because I am trying to figure you out before I  take the next step. Very few people make it/have made it into my personal space circle and the ones that have are super ass special all the others are just passing by......


bitch when I first saw you! But your like really down to earth and NICE.....Wasn't a shocker......Yep I hear that allot. This particular statement came from one of the mothers at our play group who I have gotten to know better....obviously. I told hubby the other day what this particular mom had said and I asked him

"Dude do I really come off as that big of a bitch? I mean I talk to everyone and I am the first one to introduce myself in a social situation? I don't feel like I am a bitch to people...do I?"


"It is not like you look like a bitch, more like your really, really intimidating." Hubby says 


"What do you mean?" I say 
"Well...you know your intimidating in a nice way and your confident when you walk into a room some people are intimidated by that...You know you look like you can take care of yourself."


"WTF so that makes no damn sense at all. So if I am those things I am automatically pegged to be a bitch?" I grunted 


 But in a way I knew what he meant. I had been hearing the same thing for years.

• It is hard to truly get to know you -  Yep because the times I have let people truly in I have gotten screwed and screwed hard. I have learned my lesson and I do not feel like going through that shit again. So I tread very cautiously with new relationships and I do not trust anyone except my close family and hubby.
• You have a wall up it is hard to break through/thought you were a bitch - See above....I love bloggin because it has made it easier for me to chip away at the wall little by little and you know what I am a bitch when I need to be. 
• Why don't you smile more. Because when you were raised in the city and had to take the 14 Mission bus in a Catholic school girl uniform you learn not to smile in fear of getting your ass kicked.  People who look like they know what they are doing and going avoid stepping in the puddle of shit. Show no fear baby.

As women we are all bitchy and if a woman says she is not then you should start worrying because she is lying to you. Being bitchy is part of our DNA we try not to be but we can't help it once it takes over {Hello PMS}. I  have been guilty of judging the book by it's cover. I am super opinionated and when something does not sit right I will let you know. I don't like people who lie and I hate people who over exaggerate and they do not allow you to see their true selves only the manufactured selves.   I am working on this because I want to set an example for my daughter and I want to also do it for myself. I do appreciate that the other mommy's have taken the time to get to know me and see that I am not this evil ass chick that wears black all the time but that I am a mommy just like them taking it day by day and trying to keep it all together.

I am a work in progress trying to improve myself everyday....No one is perfect no matter how hard they try and make people believe that they are.....I am comfortable enough with myself to also know that if you don't like it you can suck lemons and kick rocks....Peace

I sometimes forget...........

just how awesome our dogs are. I am reminded when I go through some of the pics I take during the week with my trusty phone. I feel like they have so much patience for dealing with GG.  Even though they have to deal with her dressing them up, riding them like horses {i kNow i kNow } but I can't watch her all the time.
My older dog 1 is getting a little older and a little bit less patient but with GG she is a doll. I can see by the look in her eyes that she is like
"Yo baby pop.....man can you please get this leach of me?" I picture that dog number 1 has a tough NY accent
But I can tell from the smile on her face she would have it no other way. Dog 2 is so much more timid but with GG she is a spit fire and truly enjoys rolling around and playing with her and never ever looks frustrated. Just because they have four legs and are just a little bit furry it  doest not mean they are not sisters. GG would never harm them she only loves them.

Oldie but a goody

Monday funday.....

What was staring  down at me this early am when I woke
how it got there I have no damn clue 

Hello my awesome bloggy friends hope everyone had an awesome ass weekend I know I did besides the lack of sleep because GG is on this night owl train - all was pretty dang good. Unfortunately because GG was such a crab ass we had to miss a birthday party on Saturday but the way both me and hubby were feeling with lack of sleep we should have not been operating a motor vehicle.  Like I mentioned before our weather has been pretty friggin fantastic but today it it raining. It is so weird how our weather can go from 75 degrees to 52 in a matter of a day.  Today it's pretty miserable outside so GG and I will be hanging low and taking care of some house business - I have a huge amount of baking to do this coming Saturday so I need to prep the ingredient  list for about 60 cupcakes and 30 of my coco loco  pecan bars which are always a huge hit. This same friend also hired me to make the gift bags since she really loved the ones I put together for GG's birthday in January. Hey why not right?....when GG is napping or just hanging out with her toys I can bust these out real quick keeps the creative juices flowing. I also had a chance to organize and clean a bunch of pictures this weekend and I totally lost my shit when I saw these couple of pics of baby GG and my dad. I do not believe how quickly she has grown....Sniff...Waaahhhhhhhh...Wasss up were did my baby go!

Nonno and GG 

That's my girl......

As I am sitting here posting away GG is going nutso with the playdoh.....was I the brilliant one who decided to buy this OCD nightmarish colored crack doh. It is crazy the crap gets everywhere. I also have about 15 sticker books - I buys huge white poster boards at the $1.00 store and I lay it on the table and she goes sticker crazy. I also got these really cool 50 cent mini pots and I am having her decorate with stickers....Sonna a bitch I too can be CrAfTy. Hopefully I will not lose it being inside CaSa CrAzY all day.   Happy Monday!

No title cuz I have no brain left......

All work and no sleep make for very cranky mommy
All work and no sleep make for very cranky mommy
All work and no sleep make for very cranky mommy
All work and no sleep make for very cranky mommy
All work and no sleep make for very cranky mommy
All work and no sleep make for very cranky mommy
All work and no sleep make for very cranky mommy
All work and no sleep make for very cranky mommy
All work and no sleep make for very cranky mommy
All work and no sleep make for very cranky mommy

We are on evening 3 that is evening 3 that little Ms. GG has decided that getting up at 2 am and sleeping is no longer an option.  That wandering from her room to our room calling out mommy is the way she will torture us this weekend. She is usually an excellent sleeper but she has these bouts of sleep wandering and just being up at some unforsaken hour from time to time.  I do not do well at all without sleep I suck at it and always have.I am good for maybe one day then I hit the wall hard.  I just can't function that is why my old timer ass is in bed by 8:30 every night unless I am out which let's face it when you have a friggin toddler that does not happen allot. My husband is a walking zombie and I am gonna start looking and feeling like Shelly Duval below if I do not get some interrupted ZZZ's. I have noticed that this seems to happen when it is the week of the full moon or just when she is about to get some kind of freak cold..Mmmmm or should I start worrying when my cute toddler daughter starts sprouting fangs and pointy ears?

It is now 7:09 am I have been up since 2:00 am I am going to try and get some shut eye before the little one gets up again {she finally fell back to sleep at 4:00}.  When I begin to see double I will let you know.

Happy FRIGGIN Saturday!

The bulls shit debate....

over the destruction of the $100,000 Birkin Bag.  As you might have guessed I love love handbags. When I see them I drool and when I buy them I get super excited that is just the way it is and the way my DNA functions...some people collect stamps I collect handbags. I mean I love my handbags and I am one spoiled bitch on buying very over inflated priced bags that sometimes make me want to vomit and punch myself in the face but you know what I worked hard for them and after doing the responsible thing with my money{paying bills, savings donations} I decided the one way to splurge on myself was getting me a few high end designer bags.   Now I get that it is in the name of art and I get what the photographer was trying to point out..On the other hand I would never EVER spend $100,000 on one bag that is like Victoria Beckham status shit and ridiculous.  However if you really think about it's all relevant how much money you have/make.

I had a chance to catch Mrs. Eastwood and Company on the telly last night and because I need to add another reality show on my list like a hole in my head. Hey why the hell not let's check it out and see what the fuss it all about. I was glad to say I am kinda of happy I did. This woman has got to be the most down to earth level headed woman ever especially since she could be a total snot ass because HELLO she is married to Clint Eastwood Hollywood royalty.  She is a pretty awesome woman who came from humble background and worked her ass off to get were she got and she tries to instills true values in her children. Mrs. E was quite disgusted that anyone would pay such an obscene amount of money for a bag. Like she stated it is hard for her to look at someone carrying  3 years worth of a teachers salary on her arm{her dad is a teacher}. That part is really sad, we pay our teachers almost nothing to teach our most prize possession -  our children and then we have some people who would be pay $100,000 for a purse. I know what her boyfriend was trying to do as he stated last night this is a bag the same type of bag you get at a grocery store {ahem no}, you put shit in it.....What is not cool is that now Francesca Eastwood is getting death threats over these photos...really now...... death threats over the destruction of a bag.....come on people. It's their money they do with it what they please...yes times are hard,  yes should they have maybe made the statement in another less frivolous way...sure but really when it come down to it it is none of anyone's business what they do with their money. Also if you really looks at the pictures what they are trying to say with the photos is that money was wasted on a pointless bag...as much as I love it...yes fashion sometimes is just plain ridiculous.